Things I Think About Thursday: When I Was An Outlaw.

Me - photo by Viva Van Story
My heart was beating out of my chest.
The mafia was involved now.
Bad decisions were being made.
My hands found themselves clutching the arms of the chair.
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The credits rolled and I blinked being thrust back into reality.
My eyes were blurry with another world, another life.
The other people that just got out of a movie were walking around like zombies.
Half in the emotional world they just watched,
half in the world of reality.
It’s been some time since a movie made me feel so involved.
I slipped into another world.
And I was emotionally invested in it.

We all watch movies to escape.
We look for ourselves in the characters.
We looks for pieces of ourselves – in fantasy, in former lives…
something we can connect to and live out through attaching ourselves
to the characters of film.

On Christmas Eve, the Big Dude and I met Giancarlo Esposito, who is the actor who plays Gus Fring on the show Breaking Bad. It’s one of the very few shows I’ve watched and have gotten emotionally connected to. If I was going to play a character in Breaking Bad, I would have wanted to be Gus or be Mike. Those were my two favorite characters in the show. I think that’s why I was so excited to meet “Gus” – his character is some extension of my personality…whether I ever act it out in reality or not, part of me at least in a fantasy realm, would be one of two of those characters.
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Think of the last movie or show that you were connected to or really enjoyed.
Which character would you have played or which character would you have wanted to be?
Answer both questions in the comments. Curious to see what you have to say.

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What I look like when I channel Ava Gardner in The Killers.

Seeing you you identify with – who made you emotionally connected is an interesting reveal….