How To Make Your Wildest Desires Come True.

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If I asked you what you wished for in life…..
what would you whisper to me?

I think it all started with the stars.
It was the stars and that childhood poem,
a spell that when uttered by my small self
just learning language
made everything seem
absolutely possible.


Star light, star bright,
First star I see tonight,
I wish I may, I wish I might,
Have this wish I wish tonight.

On Friday in the Red Room, the tarot card of The Fool jumped from the deck.
The Fool is at the beginning of the journey and sees no obstacles.
The Fool knows no boundaries.
The Fool doesn’t even know what “no” means….

much like the 4 year old me,
and the 4 year old you,
who both threw our heads back to take in the night sky
and said
the incantation of the stars
with the poem above
and wished for whatever the fuck we wanted without apology.

Last night,
on a mountain
with the moon being brand new and hiding,
the stars came out over the dark night
and ruled the sky.

Through windows and mirrors reflecting
the stars found their place
into Curiosa Magic House,
Gala Darling and I worked magic together,
woven through words
wishing bigger
creating new vocabulary
new language
to express everything
in our wildest imaginations.

And we walked with the 4 year olds of ourselves,
the ones who weren’t afraid to ask
and as the wind picked up and moved chime songs
and as night turned to morning
our fingers touched flames
wrapped in destiny.
We shall be brave enough to take it.
To say,
“Yes.”

Whisper to me a wish in the comments…
or on Twitter –
Hashtag #WishfulWednesday
Wish in one sentence
and take all the vowels out.

Go get it, you sexy wild things.

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Tarot Reading In A Red Room

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I stayed up all night painting.
My paintbrush dipping and streaking lush deep red against walls a hundred years old.
Powered incense smoking from a cast iron cauldron,
my tarot cards spread out,
three red candles burning in the middle of the empty room.

I painted a new story in that room
built on magic, on fiery passion, on perfumed smoke, on wild creativity and up-all-night thoughts.

This morning, I walked in to see the sunlight reflect on my work,
and somewhere in the early morning my cards spilled,
tipped over and gave a reading of their own….
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I wanted to share it with you.
Because I feel like this is for all of us…..

The Fool spoke of PURE POTENTIAL.
The Fool, that gorgeous chick just emerging from its own egg,
the Fool knows no boundaries.
Obstacles?
What the hell is that?
The Fool is saying…throw yourself wildly into the unknown.
Take a chance.
Lead with your heart.
Do something new.
FUCK the obstacles and fear.
There is no room for that in your head….
only adventure.
Only new.
And like the very best things in life…
some people will turn to you and say…
“You want to do what? That’s crazy! Only a fool would do that…..”

And just smile.
Move forward.
Throw yourself into it with your heart…
and show ’em how it’s done.

Have a great weekend, my Loves!
Go get it.

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The New York Times, Death and a Latte.

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Today started with Mick Jagger singing “Emotional Rescue” at 7:45am.

By 8am, the spot where I parked my car in the wee hours of this morning, was no longer legal. I purposely parked there because the possibility of a $65 ticket will roust me from bed when nothing else will.

By 8:20am, I was sitting outside of one of my favorite coffee shops, sipping a cold latte, sitting with Niney, reading the New York Times.

It was a normal morning….
until I flipped the creased newspaper over to the obituaries.

When I was a 14 year old goth girl in Florida, I would regularly read the obituaries and wrote a full notebook of poems about the people listed in them.

I would read the story their family composed –
a paragraph of a summary of life,
I would imagine them,
curve my pen into the cursive of their names
and write a poem for them.

Every person in the South Florida Tribune obituaries over the course of several months of my 14th year, had their own poem.
I felt like no one should die and not have a poem written for them
and it was my teenage mission to do it.

So now…
this morning…
this caught my eye.
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I wondered what Missy’s story was.
I wondered if the person who received the notice, working at the Times, asked them.
Probably not.
Some things we are not allowed to know.
A quick search on my phone showed that Arline, Joachim, Eddie, Sheri and Larry had printed a notice for Missy every single year in the New York Times since as far back as the year 2000.
I was touched by their dedication.
I closed my eyes to send them good thoughts wherever they are.
They could have been the people sitting next to me,
staring at clouds,
drinking coffee,
I’ll never know.

My mind wandered in the way minds do when the shadows of trees wave at you in the early morning.
I was in that space of just waking up and looking at all of these stories.
I haven’t read obituaries in years.
And here I was.

A friend of mine and I joke that his type of girl is someone who would have their wedding announcement in the New York Times.
I thought about that.
My birth announcement wasn’t in it, my wedding announcement wasn’t in it, and I thought for a moment, if hopefully very far away from now, if my story would be among these others in the Times,
if some 14 year old goth girl in Florida would write a poem about me.

When I was 6, my Grandma and Grandpa lived near a cemetery and we would go for walks there because of the beautiful gardens.
When we walked, I used to say the names on the tombstones out loud
because I wondered how long it was since someone had uttered their name.

I said their names like prayers.

And maybe that’s why I kept reading this morning…maybe that’s why I kept reading about the life stories of the 89 year old writer, the 77 year old longtime New York City sculptor, the 87 year old traveler, the 94 year old architect…..

and then I came upon the Filmmaker.
The shadows stopped waving on the pavement in front of me.
I forgot about them
because of a name.

A name I knew.

A name of a fellow filmmaker and artist in Brooklyn that I knew 10 years ago.
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Without thinking, I brought the Times to my face
maybe to bring his printed name closer
maybe to shield my expression from the world around me in that moment.
Old friend, no paragraph in the world could ever say how you shined.

I thought of ripping up the obituary,
like I did in private when my best friend Jeff passed away in 2006.
As if that would signify to the universe a request for a “do-over”,
shredding the faulty draft,
a request for a re-write of this history.

But it didn’t work then.
It won’t work now.

I watched the world keep moving around me.
They don’t know how to stop in times like these.
They just don’t know.

They just don’t know.

I folded up the paper carefully.
Put it on the counter of the coffee shop.
Thought of his family,
of his children,
of his dear friends,
of a life lived,
and of making the best of our time here always.

Rest In Peace, John.
I will not let the day simply go by….

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My Street Story: I Love Brooklyn. (Picture Post)

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The shadows of trees waved on pavement.
A rose petal from my notebook escaped and skipped down the avenue.
Reflections of bicycles zipped past like ghosts.
A golden sun came closer
to see it all.

We all have a story to tell…
Where do you live?
How do you see it?
What are your reflections in a 30 minute walk?
What do you see?
How do you create your own world?

On a blackboard sign in Brooklyn:
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The streets are decorated.  Witty crochet.
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Niney contemplates posting bills.
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Burke Heffner, Urban Cowboy of the East River Lands.
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Don’t hyss at me.
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Niney leads the way.
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My Beloved Water Tower.
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It was painted grey in the wintertime –
just like me.
But before that, for 14 years, it looked like this….
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Guess who Bunny is?
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So many stories.

Now I want to know yours….
take a walk in your neighborhood.
Snap a photo (or several)
Use the hashtag #mystreetstory
on Twitter or Instagram so I can find you.

Talk to me in pictures.

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The Secrets Of Spring You NEED TO KNOW.

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I was born in the Springtime.
And every year,
when the vibrant blossoms bloom
from what was a bare skeleton of a branch,
I am reminded
that I can do the same.

The one thing that I know from a childhood of growing up among magic and myths…
was that we can use the seasons to our advantage –
to boost, to ponder, to imagine, to soar.
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Many generations of baby birds have grown up singing their first songs in my hair.

I’ve talked about this in the Danger Diary before, and it’s a Spring tradition that is worth reminding…..
when I was a little girl, and particularly feeling small….
my Grandma Helen brushed my hair,
took the strands out of the brush,
and set it out for the birds.

Within moments, a bird came by and picked my strands of hair up its mouth.
My Grandma turned to me and said, “Your hair will be home now for baby birds to grow. They will sing their first songs nestled in strands of your hair.”

And my life suddenly seemed magical….
I had a secret
a pact with the birds and their songs.

Two days ago, Burke and I watched a bird pull a scrap of paper garbage off the street and flew away with it for its nest….and I was reminded to tell you this story again. I just cleaned out my brush and on my fire escape – is an offering to them.

And with all the buds and blossoms
with all the vibrance…
I call on YOUR spirit of blossoming…..

What is something that you want to bloom in your life, that is such a vibrant and honest part of you?

I will say that things have become very clear to me recently…
and I know what I want
I know what I want to create and inspire….

And I am so proud to announce my own wild blooms in the form of learning, growing and making it happen.

It is called
The Underground.

It is for everyone who has dreamed of being a part of a kickass gang, a secret club, a hive of inspiration.
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 This is for those of you who sometimes feel like a piece is missing to life….that you are *almost* there, but need a push!
 This is for those of you who want to uncover that rich passionate side of yourselves. I’m talking about that sensual wildness in you, brimming with ideas, imagination and drive.
 This is for those of you who KNOW there is something more out there in life….and feel ready to seek it out.

Let’s find it together as our powerful badass gang meets UNDERGROUND weekly!

It is a 4-week course in New York City starting Thursday, June 11th.

AND if you aren’t in New York City – fear NOT….it is launching as a digital class on Sunday, June 14th!

If you are called to do this work, let’s make it happen!  I’m offering payment plans so all can afford.  I want us to MOVE FORWARD and world dominate together.

My Springtime wish is that we all learn to soar.
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Come with me.

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Danger Diary May 2015 Tarot Horoscopes

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My beautiful friend, Teya, gifted me with this beautiful 100 year old fortune telling cup for my birthday, and I wanted to share its beauty with you.
It’s officially Springtime in NYC and so much is blossoming here – I will be announcing a brand new series of classes….stay tuned for all the details on Friday!
But until then, my Loves, here is your Tarot Horoscopes – I worked very hard on them – so if you love them – please SHARE and RT.
And if you love tarot and all things magic, check out The Parlour on Saturday!
Enjoy your reading….
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Taurus – April 20 – May 20:  The Lovers
Happy Birthday, my Fellow Taurus LOVERS!  I just celebrated my birthday on the 29th, but you know how us wild Taurus girls are – that party lasts for at least a solid month.  Bring IT!  So – interesting story, I was shuffling the deck for our card and The Lovers flew out of the deck and onto the couch where I was sitting.  I thought it was just a case of me not holding the cards tightly enough when I was shuffling, so I put The Lovers back in and proceeded to shuffle for another 10 minutes. I picked out our card, and guess what…..  The Lovers.

As Taurus people, we are ruled by Venus and we are all about love and sensuality.  Get ready to have a gorgeous month of la-la-love.  I’m talking romantic love like Bonnie and Clyde.  I’m talking friend love like Thelma and Louise.  I’m talking about you feeling that passionate vibe about your entire life like spring is blooming full swing.  Ride this gorgeous love emotion to bring the best of everything to you.  There’s going to be something absolutely irresistible about you this month.  You’re going to rock a spell like none other and attract the right loves (relationship and friendship) into your life.

Open your heart and let all the beauty come inside.

Question:  Taurus…I ask you a simple and powerful question this week…..What do you desire?

the-fool.jpgGemini – May 21 – June 20: The Fool

Gemini, remember when you were little and people asked you what you wanted to do, and you very clearly said with total and complete determination: “Astronaut.” “Veterinarian.” “President.”   You never hear a little kid say,  “Well, you know I really wanted to be an astronaut, but the space program is kind of shit right now, so I guess I’m not doing that after all,” or,  “I really wanted to be a vet, but man, how in the hell am I going to afford school and whatnot?”

I love The Fool card because it is you at your PURE POTENTIAL.  It is you saying fuck it to the obstacles, it is you not giving a damn about whatever is in your way and throwing yourself into it all – come what may.  I have tremendous respect for the Fool card and I love when it comes up in my readings.  Sometimes weighing the obstacles and thinking about the obstacles can not only create more obstacles but it can kill dreams.  Throw yourself into it and have the wild adventure that you deserve, Brave One.

Question:  If you had no idea what “obstacles” even were….what would you dare yourself to do?  

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Cancer – June 21 – July 22:  Daughter of Pentacles
Oh, Cancer Darling…The Daughter of Pentacles always represents a new start, new dreams, new prosperity.  The Daughter of Pentacles is my favorite artwork of the entire Wild Unknown deck and she also delivers such a juicy message!

Looking to grow abundance in your life?  Looking to draw in the perfect circumstances and perfect opportunities for yourself?  The Daughter of Pentacles brings these new things to you.  This month you shall find new inspiration, passion, and enthusiasm in a new project or experience.  Make a plan, stay focused and make it happen!

Question:  What is something that you have been dreaming of?  Are you ready for some new beginnings to come in that will bring abundance into your life?  You know all of those things that have been churning as possibilities….?  Go get them. 

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Leo – July 23 – August 22:  8 of Pentacles
Oh, Leo!  When I see this little spider come up in the cards – it always makes me smile.  I was raised on a book called “Be Kind To Spiders” and “Charlotte’s Web”…so these little friends are always seen as good luck to me.  And on the card of the 8 of Pentacles….this is such good luck for you.  The 8 of Pentacles says that you are skilled and learning more every day.   I always think of this card as the “artist’s card” of the deck….as whatever our own “art” is – this month is about crafting it further.  This can happen through taking classes, learning through an internship or apprenticeship, or it can be through really furthering your skills with practice.  All of this hard work and discipline on your end will bring about a very successful venture in something that is the “art” of your heart.

Question: Dear Leo, what do you feel skilled in doing?  What are you drawn to learning or working on?  It’s that perfect time to take a class and increase your knowledge and your skill this month.  

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Virgo – August 23 – September 22: 6 of Wands

Virgo, I was very excited to pick this card for you this month, and I love how this deck illustrates the meaning behind this card.  Here you see a bunch of wands (bramble) and the butterfly soaring high above it.  I’ve talked about this story before – but it’s an important one, and Virgo – one that you need to hear.

See that butterfly?  Well, we know that previously, that butterfly was once a caterpillar and then it cocooned and turned to mush and then turned into a butterfly.  But maybe what you don’t know, that I didn’t know before – is that that butterfly has to fight its way out of its own cocoon.  It has to beat its wings over and over and over to get its own wings strong enough to fly. Then one day, the butterfly is strong enough to break through the cocoon with its own wings and it soars to the sky.  Transformed and triumphant.

THAT is this card.

This is about getting the credit you deserve and feeling that sense of triumph!  It is also a very public thing (as in, others will take notice).  From being in those sticks on the ground and then in that cocoon – it’s time for you to soar with success.

Question: Dear Virgo, what are things you are proud of?  Time to make a list and realize all the things you’ve done and accomplished.  Seeing that will only encourage you to draw more of that success to you.  Something is brewing! 

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Libra – September 23 – October 22:  The Star
Libra – when was the last time that you went out, looked into the dark sky, saw one particular star and just made a wish out into the night?

That hope and wishing is what this month is all about!  Recently, I was a part of a gathering that I am sworn to secrecy over, but I can reveal that the precious hours that this event took place, I had renewed hope in my own juicy future and I am still at this moment, feeling incredibly inspired and trembling with the excitement of life itself.  That is what this card is.

Great power lies in opening your heart and letting your true unapologetic self out.

You know the old adage, “Dare to Dream”?  This month you are a fucking DARE DEVIL, Libra….as your motivation, inspiration and your harmony in knowing the world can be yours with a wave of your hand and ACTION….will be rocking the next 30 days.

Question:  Libra Love, what do you dream of when you let yourself?  Write down three things that give you “spark” to think of them…..and then make a wish.

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Scorpio – October 23 – November 21:  The World
There are moments, dear Scorpio, like in the early hours of the morning this past Saturday as I danced on top of a couch, watching the sun come up over this gorgeous city I live in, where I feel truly alive, and like everything has truly come together.  The World is this perfect feeling, like you’ve got that WHOLE WORLD in the palm of your hands this month.

This is the final card of the major arcana in tarot and it is completion – it is those dreams coming true, it is realizing beauty around you and fully experiencing it, it is taking every single juicy moment in life and savoring it.

Imagine this:  I come to you with one single strawberry to feed you with.  Now some people might be disappointed with just one strawberry.  But I put this strawberry in your mouth and invite you to bite down on it ONCE.  I then have you hold that strawberry in your mouth without biting.  You savor the taste, the flavor, the texture and moments later, I let you finally bite down and devour it.   That single strawberry that might have been normally thrown back without thought, is now a full worldly, gorgeous experience.  As you are living these days of May…focus on the pleasures, the successes, the things coming together….and relish as more comes to you and dreams unfold.

Question: Scorpio, what is something right now, at this very moment, that you are truly savoring in your life?  What can you do in the next 24 hours that will make your day that much more juicy and fruitful?  The World is also about sharing – so drag someone else into this gorgeousness.  GO.

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Sagittarius – November 22 – December 21: The Chariot
Sagittarius – when this card flips itself over…the very first message this card says to me is:  “Time to take the reigns.”  MORE importantly than that, this card says, you WILL be successful, and it’s time to push your determination level to do so.  Babe, let’s talk about laser focus, let’s talk about slaying all distractions and GETTING IT, let’s talk about putting your eyes on that damn prize and claiming that motherfucker.

You feeling good about this?  Because you should.  Time to amp up that self confidence and be the leader that you know you can be.  Have faith in yourself and watch the world open to you.

Question: Think about it…..when is the last time you felt like a “leader”?  When is the last time you’ve taken charge?  Think about that moment, and know that you have it in you.  What goal are you ready to get?  This is the perfect time to make this happen for you.  You’ve got this.

2-of-wands.jpgCapricorn – December 22 – January 19: Two of Wands.

Capricorn, the Two of Wands ALWAYS signifies getting ready to step outside of your own box and grow outward and upward.  It is embroiled with adventure, with enthusiasm and with passion.  In the traditional Rider-Waite deck, a man stands surveying the land with the “world” in his hands.  That’s the vibe of this card, getting that courage up to make your move for world domination.  You can start to see your plan forming, and you know what you need to do.

Before I started doing burlesque, I would go to shows, watch, see what was out there, and also figure out what my own “thing” was that I wanted to perform and put out there.  I really had a desire to sing and do burlesque at the same time, and I was setting the wheels in motion to make that happen.  When I approached the burlesque troupe, Ixion, who performed with a live band, I lied and said that I was used to singing and dancing – and pushed myself out of my comfort zone to learn quickly and make that dream happen.   It worked!  When you make the 2 of wands work for you – doors of the world open!

Question:  What is something that you want in life that will push you out of your comfort zone to get it?  Make a list of 3 things that you would do if you could not fail and go for it with this powerful energy of the 2 of wands!

7-of-pentacles.jpgAquarius – January 20 – February 18: Seven of Pentacles
My Darling Aquarius, we now find ourselves in the 5th month of this new year, and the cards are asking you to take a pause for a moment, to stop and look around and to see where you are right now.  A few months ago, I was listening to the radio and two scientists were discussing how when a rocket leaves for the moon, it does so with only a 20% accuracy rate.  That means, that the astronauts have to keep checking back in to make sure they stay on course to get to the moon.  Now, of course they are going to make their target, but the only way that they do so is by doing a “check-in”.  This card is that version of a “check-in” for you!

This is a great time to see what’s going on, give yourself a pat on the back for your accomplishments, and make sure that you are feeling good about how you are moving forward.  Are there adjustments to be made?  Are you feeling on top of your game?  No matter what your answers are – checking in is going to give you that boost that you needed!

Question: Take a look at what’s happening in your world, have you seen some great results at what you’ve been doing thus far?  Look at everything….is it time for a direction change?  A course adjustment?  Or are you feeling on track?  This “check in” is going to help you grow even faster and further this year!

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Pisces – February 19 – March 20:  The Empress.
Oh, Pisces!  The Empress is calling you to take off your shoes, put your bare feet on the ground, and run and dance and create with all the wildness inside of you!  Whenever the Empress comes up in a reading, I always take note…..she is the “mother goddess” of the tarot deck – and she is sensual, caring, creative and wild.  When she appears, she is reaching out her hand to you – to follow in her footsteps!  So get ready to live that wild and nurturing side of you….

Right now in New York City, the past few gorgeous days have been absolutely lovely – sunny, warm and most importantly, the winter coats have been shed!  There’s the spark of newness, of excitement, of abundance, of life, of beauty and creativity……that “Spring Fever” is what I imagine the spirit of the Empress to be.  Since she’s come up in your reading, this month is all about really getting in touch with those things that make you feel “on fire”.  Your creativity and your sensuality are your SUPER POWERS this month.  There is also that mothering side that will come out that makes others feel at ease around you and taken care of.

Relish every month of this gorgeous month!

Question: Your prescription for this month is a healthy dose of creativity and sensuality!  What creative projects are aspirations in your life truly make you feel alive?  WORK IT and see how good you feel.  There is power in all you create this month.

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Aries – March 21 – April 19 : 3 of Cups
Dearest Aries…
I call them “Train Tracks.”
As in…. “I would lay down on train tracks for you.”

The friends that are Train Tracks for me, are the ones that the energy of this card represents. Perfect camaraderie. This is about having both ease and sense of each other’s souls. I’m talking about really being seen by another person, and they in turn see you.

This is your “birds of a feather” crew, your very own tribe of awesome, the family that you called in.   In a similar vein of the Lovers card, but referring to friends, this month is all about bringing in those tried and true friends for some intense celebrating, life loving, life living and rocking this out together.
You gain strength to do the things you need to do in life through these moments of celebration and friendship.

Question: Who are those people that make you feel truly alive? This is the month to gather them together and celebrate as much as possible. Aries, I want you to really look at your current friend crew – who makes you feel alive and happy after you hang out together? Who makes you feel drained? Really look at this – as you are ready to embark on a powerful year for you. Time to gather your solid co-conspirators.

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Let’s Get This Party Started: Unique Birthday Rituals!

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It is after midnight in New York City,
the Empire State Building is pure white like a sparkling diamond
and it is my BIRTHDAY!
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What a fantastic year of adventure it has been…
thank you for coming along this wild ride with me.

I’ve got two unique birthday rituals that I made up and that I love to do every year and I wanted to share them with you.

1. The Three Roses.

Every year, I buy myself three gorgeous full red roses on the day before my birthday.

This year, I took the petals of the first rose and put half of them in a gorgeous candlelit bath for myself, and the other half of the petals are strewn all over my bed, ready for me to sleep in.

Waking up in rose petals for your birthday? DELICIOUS.

The second rose I put in a beautiful vase that I can look at during my day.

And the third rose I hand to a stranger on the street.

With the Three Roses Ritual, I can honor myself for another gorgeous year of adventure in this body of mine.  I celebrate my spirit and this wild life in the city I love the best.  AND I get to pass along that joy of the roses to someone else – surprising someone on the street is going to make my day!

2.  Making A Wish On The Empire State Building.

Every night at 2am, the Empire State Building flickers off.

One night the idea struck me on my birthday to climb up to my roof and make a list of wishes….

and then face towards the Empire State Building

make my wishes and then “blow” the building out.

It is the most beautiful candle on the cake of this gorgeous city that I adore.

Want to wish with me?  Just play this:

As I write this, I have 20 minutes to get out on the roof before I blow the Empire State Building out tonight to start my birthday off right.

What rituals do you do for your birthday?
Share in the comments!

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